I Love You

So my parents bought a new house recently. This isn’t the type of place you just buy and start moving your stuff into though, it needs work, a lot of work. So, being the wonderful son that I am, I help them with said work when I can, and now that school is over I have plenty of time to help. A lot of the tasks require little mental interaction, which leaves the mind open to ponder whatever little ideas flow into your brain at the moment.

Today, while measuring base boards and pulling carpet staples, I started questioning what it is I really want. I’ve known many people who all wanted different things from life. For some it was to succeed in their career, for others to simply have fun; some wanted to settle down and start a family, some wanted to own a home. Travel, money, fame, the list of things people wanted in life goes on and on. For me, I’d always gone with the standard, “I want to be happy.” That is still true to an extent, but I think I finally realized what it is I really want today.

I want to find someone that I can look in the eyes, and say to them, honestly and without hesitation, “I love you.” Someone that I have no doubts about, I just look at them and know that it’s real. It goes without saying that I want them to say it back, and I want to just know that they mean it. That they feel the same way I do. Honestly, I think I could take whatever life throws at me if I had someone like that in my corner, cheering me on, picking me up when I fall down, and patting me on the back when I do a good job.

I see all the shit my parents have gone through, and I know that neither of them could handle it without the other being there. I want that too. I can’t say if I’ve already met this person or not, but I hope in the end, if I have, everything works out the way it should. And if I haven’t, I really hope I do one day.